and hatred arises_

i hate it.

i hate how you make me doubt myself. i hate how foolish all my acts seem. i hate how you make me ponder over every little thing. i hate how you make me reduce myself to comparing with insignificant others.

i hate my inability to shut it all out.

i just hate it all.

不过是幻觉

每每在听歌之后
心里总会承载满满的情绪
大脑会不自觉制造很多假象

就像现在 我自以为我嫉妒
但 也不过是幻觉_